I only have one more week here in New York City.
It still doesn’t feel real that I actually spent an entire summer here. It feels like home now, I’ve grown accustom to getting up every morning, getting on the subway and going to work. What will I do when I’m back in Mississippi and it is a totally different world? Nothing will be the same. Not the people. Not the surroundings. Not the atmosphere. I’m different, how could I not be? I’ve found myself in a way here. I actually know what I want out of my life, what I want to accomplish. I feel good, and I want to keep this feeling when I get back home.
I know I’m going to leave a piece of my heart in this place, send it with the people I’ve grown close to. Isn’t it crazy how you meet people, and you literally take them with you for the rest of your life? You might not even realize it until something random, maybe even years down the road, triggers your memory and you remember the person. Or they might come back into your life in a huge way, when you thought you’d never see or hear from them again. That’s recently happened to me. A person from my past that meant a lot to me, has come back and I never knew I could care this much about someone I haven’t seen since I was 16 years old. I’m not even 100% sure that I will ever see him again, but I know he’s come back into my life for a reason. I can feel that part, but I just have to be patient until God is ready to reveal to me what that reason is. It could be something so small, just to teach me a little something about patience or love, but I know he’s back for a specific purpose.
I needed this summer more than I can even express. I’m so thankful that God gave me the opportunity to come here and meet my roommates and the people I work with. I’ve heard God’s voice louder in this crazy city than in my quiet state of Mississippi, I never guessed that would happen this summer.
Be still, even when you’re in the midst of constant noise, and you’ll be able to hear the Lord speaking to you, even if He is speaking ever so softly.
……peace out, y’all <3